Do you ever feel like you just can't pull your act together?
That is just absolutely the way I feel. I keep thinking that if I had some more time that I would be able to figure it out but I am seriously concerned that more time would not help.
Times have been stressful lately. I have found in the past that when big stressful life events happen to me that I think that I am coping just fine but then I discover didn't really have my act together. The first time I found this out about myself was the when my son had neurosurgery. I thought I was doing okay but in reality, I wasn't. I was forgetting lots of things but some protective brain thing told me I was okay. It happened again during his next two surgeries and then when my Mom died. I am pretty sure I am in that phase again.
It is funny how you can delude yourself. Okay, not funny haha but maybe odd it the word.
As I am sure you have guessed, during times like this, thinking about what we are eating does not happen. Silent Sam and I were away last week. We were not very good about watching our food intake. I am trying to rationalize that we were not as bad as we used to be but we as good as we should have been.
How many times have I told you that we are going to change. Yes, that is how often we have to change. We are headed back on the path. Silent Sam has been very nice and has been doing a lot of the cooking and that has to change. We need to watch our portions again. That is one of our biggest downfalls. The worst part is that we know that we were full with the smaller portions and yet we resist going back.
Are you thinking, how stupid are these people? We are not stupid, we are just people like all others that have some failings. Our failing is food while yours might be something else like trying to control something that is beyond your control.
Silent Sam has signed up for two runs in the next month and a half. His training needs to be stepped up. He did run while we were away and that was good. (except for that first morning when he got lost...) I have continued to do my exercises for my bad knee and it helps.
So, today is a new day and I can behave today. I will figure out a dinner for tonight that will keep our portions in control and we will feel full.
Thanks for reading!
Keep at it, Carol! It's a lifestyle change and a constant work in progress. The best thing is to remember not to berate yourself and move forward. I know you can do it. Best wishes!
ReplyDeleteI too am dealing with Type 2 diabetes and am the cook in our house. My husband is good about helping me out, but wish he would go for walks with me. I am 61 and he is 58, soon to be 59 in July! I am only on medication, but I know I could be off if I upped my exercise. 10 years ago, I was riding in bike races and doing 53 miles in 3 1/2 hours on my bike! Started this spring to get back into biking.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, Carol. Baby steps will turn into strides! You can do and remember...... how bad you want to live? That's what keeps me going!!