I woke up this morning with a headache. This on the morning that it is raining and I have planned to take the day off walking. I didn't even have to get up early!
There must be something wrong - I want to go for a walk. Don't worry, I can talk myself out of it.
So, I came downstairs and opened a Coke. Are you gasping? Are you wondering how I could do that? No problemo. I have been doing it for years. I have tried to back it off until later in the day but sometimes it just doesn't work.
There is nothing like Coke.
(If you are thinking - "at least she could have Diet Coke" - I wish I could. I get migraines and one of my "triggers" is NutraSweet. So no diet soda for me.)
Here I sit. I have made up a list of things that I want to work on and I start thinking about having something to eat. Hmmm... Popcorn comes to mind. Yes, popcorn came into my mind at 6:30 a.m. Then I thought that it just wasn't the thing. Hmmmm.. Frozen yogurt? Not right either.
Suddenly, I thought, how about something healthy and -gasp- maybe even appropriate. How about a yogurt? With a certain level of sadness, I decided the yogurt was the way to go.
You see, I am here alone. No one knows what I am doing. I could make cookies, eat them and no one would know it.
Why oh why am I thinking this way? OHHHH it must be that emotional eating thing... It has been a difficult work week. Which is sad because this is the week that I also had some success. Yes, I did the 5K distance TWICE this week. I am really happy about that.
So what would it be like if I were actually diabetic? As you know, the Coke would be out. While I can finagle it into Weight Watchers (they would be so proud) no matter what, it would not work for a diabetic. Silent Sam does not drink soda so, fortunately for him, he didn't have to give up my beloved Coke. Also the cookies, popcorn, and frozen yogurt would really need to be thought through.
Mostly, there is just a lot of thinking and planning that needs to happen around the subject of food. It sounds easy but for me it isn't. When I think are doing okay, I suddenly see how we could be better - ALWAYS after the fact.
Which brings up another thought of mine. The more I learn about diabetes, the more I think that Type 1 diabetics are heroes. The diabetes that we are experiencing in this house is really nothing to compare to what Type 1 diabetics have to experience. They have had to try and control their blood sugar through puberty, teenage rebellion, and hormone fluctuations. They are truly to be admired. It would not be easy. So for all you Type 1 diabetics, you have my admiration and sideline support.
Thanks for reading!